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A Self Reflection on Multiple Sclerosis

I wish to continue putting some additional focus on Multiple Sclerosis for this month of March, 2019. I am doing this as I have not seen much in the way of social media postings, or awareness being brought. Yes, I could be living in a bubble, but I have just not seen much other than the standard groups.  MS organizations and even drug manufactures are out their promoting it but not much else that I have seen.

So, what I am doing with this posting is linking back to several past articles I have written about MS. The posts I am sharing go far back into the archive going back to maybe 2014.

The below are links to several of those postings I wanted to share with a blurb that was the opening to each of the pieces. I do hope you will find these interesting and share to help others who may find strength from the writings, or find some useful information.  One thing you will note is as I’ve written over the years my grammar and writing has improved, I hope. (smiles)

 

Suicide is Painless

This is not an easy blog post to write. I have started over multiple times as the subject is not one that people want to hear about. It’s one that many feels belong in the shadows, that the problem is all in someone’s head. The fact is, it is in their head. Their emotions are all over the place from any form of issues which includes, and not limited to, the short list below:

July, 2018… https://knightmist.wordpress.com/2018/07/26/suicide-is-painless

My Answers to 5 Frequent Questions on Multiple Sclerosis

I’m one of those people who is not afraid to take time to talk to someone about the beast that is now part of my life. The beast is nothing that is seen upon my body. You do not see a creature hiding behind me, on my shoulders or hugging my leg. Granted at times it does feel like it is hugging both legs and even my arms. The beast is called Multiple Sclerosis.

July, 2018…https://knightmist.wordpress.com/2018/07/01/my-answers-to-5-frequent-questions-on-multiple-sclerosis/

Strong Legs and a Lesson

My original plan was to write a post on a book review but then I saw something that had me change my tactics. The source too many is hated and one of the worst news sources in the world, and that is Fox News. So, what could I find from there that would have me creating a blog post? I’m sure there are a lot of ideas running in people’s heads, but I’m sure they are in most guesses wrong. The title of this post may have given an idea, but what brought me to this post is simple. Her name is Janice Dean; she is a meteorologist for Fox News and most importantly has Multiple Sclerosis.

January, 2015…https://knightmist.wordpress.com/2018/01/15/strong-legs-and-a-lesson/

Personal Insights into me and my Multiple Sclerosis

I’m not one to do year in review type of posts. I do think it is important to learn from the past and to move forward, but not live in the past. So I do not go for the end of year, or highlights type of things. Instead I noticed I have not mentioned much about my Multiple Sclerosis and what that brings to my life in some time. So, that is the point of this post, my life since I got diagnosed.

December, 2017…https://knightmist.wordpress.com/2012/12/17/personal-insights-into-me-and-my-multiple-sclerosis/

M(s)onster Awakens -A True Story

I wish I could say that the reason for the lack of content over the last few weeks was due to something new and exciting. Sadly I would be lying if I stated that as much of my lack of content has been more relating to health issues.

I’ve written about my Multiple Sclerosis before and after the survey results it was revealed people wanted to see more content around it. So this post is a glimpse of the struggles I’ve been dealing with over the past few weeks. They are health related and I have no fear exposing myself, not in that way people, to the world when it comes to the MS. Yes I am still me and got to throw out some odd humor to lighten a serious mood. It’s just who I am. I must now get back on track, so back to the meat of the post.

March, 2015…https://knightmist.wordpress.com/2015/03/30/msonster-awakens-a-true-story/

Fall and the Monster

The change from spring to the fall is one of my favorite times of the year. The leaves turn from their summer green to hues of yellow, orange, and red before they fall to the ground. It’s beautiful to see those colors as they hang from the countless number of trees, at times it looks as beautiful as a sunset. The one drawback the leaves falling gracefully to the ground, and creating a carpet of color is raking them off the yard. This brings me to the main topic of this long promised post, The Fall and Multiple Sclerosis.

November, 2015…https://knightmist.wordpress.com/2015/11/23/fall-and-the-msonster/

Dangers of First Impressions (Opinion by Shawn Micallef)

As many know a first impression is the mental image a person forms regarding another person when they first meet. This is usually is something that comes from a first face to face encounter, but today I’m sure can be formed through internet interactions were people never see each other. Well, I should add never see each other at first.

April, 2014…https://knightmist.wordpress.com/2014/04/11/dangers-of-first-impressions-opinion-by-shawn-micallef

In Darkness There is Light: Depression, MS, and Suicide

I am ending the year of 2014 with what must be my most personal of posts I have ever written on the blog. This one will get into some deep corners of my mind as I feel in sharing some of that darkness I may be able to bring some light to those who finish this long post. I say that as I will endeavor to show a positive that comes from dealing with Multiple Sclerosis (MS) and depression. I will warn that this is a lot of free flowing thoughts and grammar may be bad. The intent is in the message not the grammar and I just had to get this written and shared before I lost my nerve.

December, 2014…https://knightmist.wordpress.com/2014/12/29/in-darkness-there-is-light-depression-ms-suicide/

 

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Posted by on March 13, 2019 in Multiple Sclerosis

 

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March is MS Awareness Month

The month of March is designated as Multiple Sclerosis Awareness Month. It is why on this 3rd day of March in the year 2019 that I write this posting. I will do this in a different form from of my other postings as the point is to help brings awareness to the disease.

I will start by stating the MS is not as rare as originally thought for Americans. It was recently reported that after a 5-year study by the National Multiple Sclerosis Society that nearly 1 million Americans have the disease.  This is a major change in the disease as for the longest time it was thought to impact under a half million people.

I know that I saw some on social media applaud this change in numbers impacted. They were thrilled that the numbers were higher as it meant there would be more funding. They also mentioned how this report could help bring light to all those that suffer from the disease. I, on the other hand, understand their thinking but disagree.  I say that as considering how MS can impact people in so many different ways, I saw it as more people are going to potentially suffer.

You see, for me, MS has not been to life-changing to me, yet. I am still the same guy I was prior to my diagnosis over 10 years ago now. I have my “odd” humor which is a mixture of sarcasm, some self-deprecation, and just overall goofy as I just want people to laugh and smile. I want people to see me for who I am and not the disease that is within me.

I got to say that for me the biggest issues is the MS Fatigue that can come on out of nowhere. I mean imagine being wide awake, energy level on full, and boom your eyes can’t stay open. You just want to sleep. Your head bobs down,  you snap back hurting your neck, down it goes again and again. It’s maddening, and sometimes a dose of caffeine will help me get awake again. Other times, well glad I got some comfy furniture for napping. (yep sign of that humor here)

The other issues I get are sore legs, and arms at times. I will say, just imagine that someone is sticking you with 100 needles all on the inside of your body focusing on those appendages. Yeah, if that helped you get a sense, at times it feels like 10 times that number. I got to say it really doesn’t hurt like you think it would but it’s enough to cause quite the discomfort.

Other problems that come to light due to the MS. Well, just say I’m glad I work from home and I have a bathroom really close to my home office. Otherwise, if I was in the office we may find out why most garbage cans are plastic lined. Yeah, I know that may have been an overshare, but it’s about awareness right.

Now, I got to say I am also one of those “warriors” that will not let this MSonster take me down. You see where I live there were over 5 or more feet of snow that fell this past February. I live in a home that has multiple adults within these walls. The ironic thing, I am probably the healthiest one so much of that snow removal fell on me. I may complain about it, but really it’s exercise and a few times I know I pushed it. My legs were in pain, my arms hurt, but I did it.

I feel pride in seeing the concrete on the sidewalk and my driveway. I look around at neighbors and many of them are still snow covered and ice underneath. I will be clear I live on a corner so I have plenty of sidewalks to clear but I do it. What is my motivation to make it so clear? Easy.  I imagine someone like me who may have balance issues, or just unsure about walking in the snow. I imagine them slipping and falling on my sidewalk and breaking a bone. I mean I recently fell and if anyone saw me they would have laughed. I had to crawl up into a snowbank to get my footing back. There was pure ice under me so each time I had tried to get up, oops down again I went. This is why I go all out, I do not want someone having to experience that.

I know this is going long so let me bring up another subject quickly. It’s the awareness that is brought by celebrities going out in public talking about MS. Selma Blair was getting headlines for her courage for going to an Oscar’s Party after her diagnosis. She was utilizing a cane to be able to walk, as well.

I got to say by celebrities being willing to talk about their struggles helps to bring even more awareness to the disease. My major issue with that is there are so many others that show the same amount of courage or more on a daily basis. These are some of those near million people who have the disease. The main difference they do not have that celebrity status so they go unseen.

So, here let’s bring this all back together using that word unseen as the final point. You see, MS is can be one of those silent diseases. It is one that you cannot just look at a person and go, “They have MS”. We don’t all have canes, we do not all need wheelchairs, or other forms of transportation to get around. We put one foot in front of the other just like so many able-bodied people. The problem, inside we could be in pain. We may be exerting a lot of effort to just walk around a store. We may have handicap placards for our cars and look normal getting out. We get judged for that, but there is one thing I always want to say to those individuals. “I’ll happily trade my MS for this parking spot if you’d like.”

I’m not sure how much awareness I am bringing to MS with this posting. I am sharing at least my views and letting you into my thoughts. I hope no one got scared of getting a bit inside my head.

I’d love to share some names of those with MS that are like me, no celebrity, but I know some folks don’t even share with their family they have it. Why? It’s their choice as sadly like depression, MS can have a stigma with it.

So, with that stated instead let’s look at some of the celebs who have shared their diagnosis. Why? It’s to show you that MS does not discriminate.

Celebs with MS (Shortlist)

  • Jack Osbourne
  • Selma Blair
  • Janice Dean
  • Clay Walker
  • Tamia Hill
  • Montel Williams
  • Jamie-Lynn Singer
  • Trevor Bayne
  • Teri Garr
 
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Posted by on March 3, 2019 in Multiple Sclerosis

 

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Saucy Jacky by Author Doug Lamoreux

The name Jack the Ripper still will bring interest to the mines of individuals today, as much as it did when he committed the murders that made him famous, back in 1888.  The man would send fear across a city, if not a country, not just for the murders but the brutality of those murders. The fact after so many decades, no over a century, and there is still debate on who he was can be considered astounding. There have been plenty of television shows, movies, books, and other mediums of entertainment that have covered the man. We now to get to take a very different look at him thru the mind of author Doug Lamoreux in his book, Saucy Jacky.

Saucy Jacky will take the reader into not the gruesome crimes that where committed but dare I write this mind and what drove him.  I will warn readers with squeamish stomachs Lamoreux did his research for this book. He does not spare any details on how Jack’s victims met their ends. I will also remind potential readers the book takes place in the late 1800s in London, England. A period that saw high immigration, large unemployment, and even some racial/ethnic divides.  These could be prevalent in the Whitechapel district of London where the Ripper committed much of his murders.

The book opens as Jack himself is describing the sensation he, and his victim, felt as he proceeded to stab her for the first time. Yes, you read that right the book opens as Jack describes how is going about killing his first victim. Sharing with the reader his thought processes, where he got the knife, and even correcting himself as he tells the tale. He will even go as far as to promise to name himself at some point, but for now, he is Mr. ___.

Readers will get a taste of the man behind the knife, and those crimes as you continue to read the book. I will say that I am being a bit vague as I do not wish to give too much of the book away.  I will just note that as you read there will be many pieces of information that will be touched on regarding Jack.

You will discover how his lodgings will play a big part in his crimes. All I will allude to here, is you have to ask yourself how can living above a now-shuttered shoe store help Jack. Mrs. Griggs, who is his landlady, will be just as helpful due to her love of sharing the daily news with Jack.  A woman who is politically active who leads a group of women who call themselves Dress Reformists will all come into play in helping Jack.

There are also those individuals he works alongside in his daily job. A job that leads him to hear some great gossip from a female co-worker who is dating a policeman. This co-worker will give Jack a behind the headlines account of what the police are doing to try and capture the killer.

Saucy Jacky will go into great details on what potentially may have driven the man to commit such atrocities to these women of Whitechapel. You will learn why he selected these women, and how he was influenced by his upbringing. The interesting pieces are also what drove him to write his infamous notes to the newspapers, and police. There will be some real genius in how those were done and how, if true, would have really thrown the police off in that period. Something, for the reader, to discover as they read the book.

There will be many other insights into what may have been the mind of Jack throughout the book. As he learns about the police activities, he will share his thoughts on those coppers.  There will be vigilante groups created to also capture him, and one of their leaders will get a “special” gift sent to him. There, of course, will be his commentary on the Dress Reformist meetings as well. The biggest insights will come as we get to read his reactions to how the press, during the period, covered his crimes. We will also get a sense of how he felt having the name Leather Apron given to him, and what drove him to really name himself.

Saucy Jacky is of course based on what author Doug Lamoreux gained from the research he did for this book. He involved Ripperologists, those past newspapers, their journalists and so many others he thanks in his acknowledgments. The one thing is clear if any of the thought processes utilized within this story are true to the real Jack, well it’s no surprise he was never found.

 
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Posted by on February 9, 2019 in Reviews

 

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A Light in the Desert by Anne Montgomery

I first want to state I do not always re-post a blog review but in this instance I felt it was necessary. You see the book, A Light in the Desert, seems to have some interesting luck. The book saw it’s previous publisher close and is being republished. I want to say this is not the first time either to be honest, but we won’t get to much into that. I just know that Author Anne Montgomery haw been one of those authors who I have reviewed a few of her books. It is for that willingness on her part to allow me the pleasure of reading her books that I am re-posting this review. I do hope you find it helpful in discovery a new read that you should really enjoy.

I have to admit when I saw the title to author Anne Montgomery’s newest book I had a flashback to the Rocky Horror Picture Show. Why? In the movie Brad and Janet go toward a light to find help after a flat tire and a song plays. The song has a lyric of, “In the velvet darkness of the blackest night, burning bright, there’s a guiding star, no matter what or who you are.” I of course started humming the rest of the song but after reading, A Light in the Desert, I found this lyric to be quite fitting.

I write this as such a light has numerous connotations available to why it may be seen. A religious person would think of the light that led the three wise men to the manger where Jesus was born. Those not of a religious background may think alien, car light, train, or just a plain old light with nothing special to it. The book will introduce the reader to a few potential options but in its core is a story that takes the reader into the lives of many people that are as diverse as the wild of the Arizona Desert they all call home.

A Light in the Desert will introduce the reader to former Vietnam veteran Jason Ramm who has moved into town. He’s been able to settle in and found he’s been welcomed by the locals. As a person reads the book they will get to find much more of his background, including potential mental problems. These problems did not appear till he had a “mission” in Jerusalem and you may wonder what was he doing there. You will of course need to read the book to find out why. They will also find that he finds a dog, near death, and helps bring it back to life.

There are other characters like young teenager, Kelly Garcia, who is very pregnant and living with The Children of Light. The children are a group of Pentecostal zealots who try to live the way of the bible. They try and grow all their own food and help take care of those who cannot help themselves like Kelly. She has found her way to their home after a jealous mother decided she could not live with Kelly in the house any longer. Kelly does have a birth defect in her face, but it appears some man still found her beautiful.

There are other characters within the book such as a malicious gas station owner who has no problem beating his own son. The man’s problem is that the son has reached an age where he is not afraid of his father and is himself quite ruthless. The local store owner is the man all should talk to if they want to find out about their neighbors as he is the local gossip. He hears so much and sees so much as he does operate the only store around. There then is a smart and edgy news reporter who according to her bosses is a bit “past her prime”. She has won several Emmy’s but her age has caught up to her and in the world of TV News that is deadly.

The book will take the reader into a very complex plot filled with many plot lines. Ramm seems to be just another man escaping the big bad world but there is so much more to him. He helps the Children of Light and even takes a liking to Kelly. She needs help and someone to watch over her as she is under educated and the world has not been kind to her.  Ramm even may believe that she may help him with the madness he struggles with all the time.

There then is the gas station owner’s son, Billy, who stole so much from his father before running away. In truth Billy had left a nice package for his father in the bathroom of the gas station but it was found before it could do any damage. Billy has missed that opportunity but for those riding the train that goes through the area will find out, he is not done yet.

The book does have several different plot lines, but there is one thing that runs throughout the book. This is how one should never give up and fight for what they feel is right. Yes, there are those within the pages of, A Light in the Desert, that are misguided but the story unfolds nicely thanks to Montgomery’s writing. People will find some characters larger than life, and others you cannot help but sympathize with. There are even moments when one may feel terrible for Billy, and the next want to him hurt. The one character that caught my eye was that of the “retired” TV Reporter Kate. I felt there may be a bit of Montgomery in this character when one considers her back ground in TV. The simple truth is that each character is well developed and the story eventually will find a point where all the plot lines seem to join and converge on the right track. I have one final note and that is be sure to read the Dedication as the struggles Ramm has may be more real for the reader

 
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Posted by on November 20, 2018 in Reviews

 

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Water to Water Character Interview Kititit (Weesah)

The below is a character interview from the book Water to Water written by Author Karen A Wyle. Please enjoy the insight into on of the characters minds from her book.

{Note Kititit is a Weesah and a peddler who befriends Terrill and Honnu}

Q. How did you become a peddler

A. Well, now. That’s a ways to think back . . . . When I was a young sprout, we had a neighbor who was a peddler, wagon and all. I thought her wagon was about the prettiest thing I’d ever seen, all painted up as it was. And she used to let me help load the goods in the back – leastways, helping is what she called it. Getting in the way is what I’d call it, remembering. And when she’d been away and came home again, she always had stories to tell about the places she’d been. I’d never been anywhere, and I got to hankering after a life like she had.

 

Q. Your wagon – did it used to be your neighbor’s?

A. Right you are! Though by the time she figured she was ready to stay home and play with her grandchildren and take it easy, the wagon was what you might call used up – the canopy, anyway. My folks gave me a new one, and I picked what to paint on it.

 

Q. You have a mate and children, I hear. How have you managed to strike a balance between traveling and family life?

A. Well, I don’t have just any mate. I made sure to find a lady as liked to hear stories. I promised to always bring back plenty of stories. And she’s an independent sort – doesn’t need someone at her elbow all the time, telling her how to do things. A mate as hung around every day might get annoying for such as her. So we suit each other. And the longer I’m away, the longer I stay home and do my bit with the young ‘uns and the beasts and the garden and all. And now that some of our young ‘uns are grown, she has plenty of help when she needs it.

 

Q. You’re acquainted with Terrill and Honnu, I believe. How did that come about?

A. I’ve known Honnu a good piece of his life, I’d say. I visit a few different fisher villages, and he lives – or lived, I’m not sure which is right just now – in one of ‘em. I was the first Weesah he ever saw, I reckon, and how he would stare! Anyhow, he’s a curious fellow and always likes to hear my traveler’s tales.

 

Q. That brings up an interesting point. Aren’t you somewhat given to exaggeration in those tales of yours? Should Honnu believe everything you say?

A. (laughs) No, I can’t say as he should. But I reckon he knows that. Now, I wouldn’t say he knows just what to believe and what not to. But if he ever asked me, serious-like, I’d tell him.

 

Q. And Terrill? How did you meet him?

A. That was luck, if luck is something that happens, as to which I’ve no firm opinion. His da took ill, and Terrill was one of the funeral party as took him to the sea. I left Honnu’s village about the time they left to head home again, and we got to talking on the road. A nice young fellow. On the serious side, and tending to worry more than is comfortable for a youngster his age. I did my bit to cheer him up, when I could.

 

Q. And how did Terrill and Honnu meet each other?

A. (chuckles) Well, I’ll maybe let you ask one of them about that. I’d best be packing up and heading on, pretty soon. Any last questions? Or might you be wanting something from the wagon before I go? I’ve got some good knives I picked up a few towns back. Or if you’ve little ones at home, I have toys — balls for juggling, and these dolls. See the bits of shell that make up the armor? And of course, I have fish. Always plenty of fish.

 
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Posted by on November 4, 2018 in Interview

 

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Water to Water Character Interview Terrill (Vushu)

The below is a character interview from the book Water to Water written by Author Karen A Wyle. Please enjoy the insight into on of the characters minds from her book.

 

[NOTE: Terrill is a Vushlu. He would have become an adult next year by taking a ritual first journey to the ocean with other Vushla his age. Instead, he attained adult status prematurely, accompanying his dying father to the ocean, where his father went into the water to be dissolved.

 

Interviewing Terrill is a tricky task. As the book begins, he is understandably morose. Later, when he is less so, he has good reasons not to reveal his activities and concerns. I’ve dealt with this dilemma by splitting his interview into two, and working within the limitations Terrill sets.

 

The first interview takes place at a rest stop during the funeral party’s return trip. Terrill speaks in a quiet monotone most of the time.]

Q. I’m very sorry about your father.

A. Thank you.

 

Q. It will take you quite a while to get home. How are you occupying yourself along the way?

A. I’m trying to remember as much as I can about Da. [a pause; he clenches and armors his fists] But the things I remember keep reminding me of things I don’t know. Questions I never asked, and never can, now. [long pause]

 

Q. Have you found any ways to keep your spirits up?

A. There’s a Weesah peddler who’s been traveling alongside us. He likes to tell stories. When I listen to them, it takes my mind off . . . other things. I’ve even laughed a few times. [glances to the side] Not that my uncle approves. Of the listening or the laughing.

[An older Vushlu approaches; the interview concludes]

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[The second interview takes place around three months (or the equivalent) later. Terrill is now traveling in the peddler’s wagon, as is Honnu, another Vushlu about his age.]

Q. Is this where you expected to be, at this time?

A. No. Nothing about what I’m doing these days is as I expected. One unpredictable event has led to another.

 

Q. What can you tell me about these events?

A. [a slight smile – which for Vushla means a rounded mouth] Very little, I’m afraid. Except that one of our funeral party, my aunt, became very ill on the way home. The others returned to the sea with her. I [a short pause] chose not to. That led to my becoming better acquainted with Honnu. And that led to everything else.

 

Q. So do you think you’ll become a peddler?

A. [another smile] I don’t think so. But for now, I’m a peddler’s assistant and have my duties. I’d better go.

 

Q. Perhaps we’ll meet again along the road.

A. I . . . don’t think that is very likely. But stranger things have happened. [a quiet chuckle] Indeed they have.

 
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Posted by on November 4, 2018 in Interview

 

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Water to Water Character Interview Honnu (Vushu)

The below is a character interview from the book Water to Water written by Author Karen A Wyle. Please enjoy the insight into on of the characters minds from her book.

 

[NOTE: Honnu is a young Vushlu. His family are fisher folk and live by the sea. This interview takes place around the time the story begins, on the beach, in late afternoon. Honnu is cleaning a fishing boat.]

 

Q. Hello. I hope I’m not disturbing –

A. Watch out! I’m using seawater here.

 

Q. It’s splashing all over you. Isn’t that a problem?

A. Not with this suit on. [He gestures along his body.] It’ll keep the water out for years and years yet.

 

Q. Do you have such suits for visitors? For rent, perhaps?

A. Sorry, no. They take a long time to make. We only get them when we’re done growing, and then we keep them for a long time. Let me just finish up here, and we can talk.

[a few minutes later]

All done! I have a few minutes before I go do chores.

 

Q. I gather you fish for a living.

A. That’s right.

 

Q. Do you like it?

A. [a slight pause] Pretty well. I like working with other people. More when they appreciate my help, which they mostly do. Of course, I like it better some days than others. In hot season, it’s cooler out on the water than on land – though the suit does make me warmer than I’d be otherwise. Cold season, that can get, well, cold, suit or no suit. And I get pretty tired by the end of the day. But it’s better than being bored. [another pause] Not that I’m never bored.

 

Q. Do you picture yourself doing anything different, later in your life?

A. [scuffs a hind foot in the sand] I’d like to see more of the world, someday, somehow. I hear stories – mainly from the Weesah peddler who comes here – and I want to see for myself whether they’re true, and what other stories might be out there waiting to be found.

[someone calls Honnu’s name from a nearby dwelling]

I’d better go. Chores, like I said. It was nice talking to you. If you want to come with me, you could maybe stay for dinner. The peddler brought sausages, and we’ll be having a campfire.

 
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Posted by on November 4, 2018 in Interview

 

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